Do i really want to? Anyone suicidal or thinking about it, plz read

This isn't one of my best poems, but it really is an eye opener if you think about it.


Sometimes i feel confused
lonely and trapped
And no matter how hard i try
I can't seem to escape

I wonder if i held
that knife to my wrist
if i would give myself final peace
or would there finally be answers to my questions

If i took my own life
would all my pain end?
Or would it be the beginning
all over again?
The only purpose it has is to serve more anger and fustration
guilt, doubts, and self blaming

Do i really want to give up
just because it's too hard?
Or should i give an effort
to make sense of this and conquer what's left?
So when i truely do pass on
people won't look down on me
and only remember the fact
i'm no longer here, because i gave up too soon

Do i really want to hurt
all the people that care?
Do i really want to leave
them in a state of mind
That if they did a little more
paid a little more attention
I might still be here?

How could i let my best friend
see me in that casket?
As he blames himself for the loss
of someone he loved
Someone he cared about
someone he'd take the place of
If he was given the chance?

How can i do this
just because i hurt?
Why do i want to rip myself out of the arms
that hold me dearly?
Why do i want to let down
anyone that looks up to me?
Why do i want to do this
to someone that thinks highly of me?
Because i've made it this far, dealing with it all
Do i really want to tear someone's heart to peices
just because i couldn't take it?


***Special Note: I've seen a lot of people talking about commiting suicide, and i've even been victim to the thought and spoken words myself, i'm sure many can relate to that. I've lost someone to suicide, because he thought it was the only way to solve his problems, but in actuality, he was just making more. If you are thinking about doing something like this, please completely think this through, find someone to talk to, it really isn't worth it, i can assure you of that.***

Take care.
Dangerously Tempted

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