"Who I really Am...I'm Comming Clean" on the 6th Month Anny*...............Steel Dove   Author:  33900  Category:(USM Events) Created:(3/6/2003 8:38:00 PM) This post has been Viewed (440 times) Well today mark a special day to me. Six months ago to the day I was living what seemed to be a Fairy Tale. You all remember me, I have been here for several years, you knew my husband too. Each of you that knew us saw and lived our laughter and fairytale right along with us. You went through much of it with us, tears, Laughter, Court battels, Adopting our son, Gaining near custody of his son, and who could forget...me glueing myself to the cat. Six months ago today you would have never heard me say that I was in a living hell. Well, six months have gone by now and I can honestly say I have been released from it and I have and am continuing to grow. I want you each to know now who I was I still am, I just changed my name. I'm sure you remember. I have recently become an Admin on the site and I feel that many of you don't realize that I am a rather familiar old face. Being made an Admin made me feel like now that my life has changed for the better, I need to let you kn0ow, all of you know who I am and have always been. I have found a Love and living very happily with him and his daughter here in my home that I once shared with my husband. Yes, my roomate Steve, still lives here too. My boys are doing much better and so am I. (no, no funny bussiness going on) Between the three Adults here we all split house expenses, so, financially I am slowly recovering from the damage. I am just now dealing with my fathers death and that is a bit hard. But, I have my home and Sanity still and a vehical to drive. Oh yeah, the Awesome new job...I ixnayed on the Ursing nay! And am slowly putting together my own bussiness. You knoqw what they say...Find an outlet. That the boys still need. I think they may have found it. After everything that happened six months ago I never thought that I would get here, but the boys and I did. I learned and still learn from all that has happened. John has healped me through alot of it. Many of you as friends have also. I had to forgive the double life, the cheating, the stealing, the lying and prostitutes...so on and so on. I have never taken revenge and I just had to forgive. The only place in my heart I feel anger is toward not being able to mourn the death of my father properly with my mother and children. Also the loss of two children. I will eventually get there as also my children will, it is so much easier to forgive than forget. I had to start over inside and learn to trust a man again, I know I was a good mother and wife. I now know I can still be. For the First time in my life, I truly deeply love a man and see his heart. (his cute butt too:p) I am sure there are going to be more challenges and changes in life, but, after what we have all gone through it is Crisco from here let me tell ya! I just know I have once again found my happy place. LOL You all healped in that. I encourage you all to forgive and love people no matter what they do to you. Trust me Loving someone that hates you DRIVES them FAR away! (and it helps you become a size 3!) BTW..I hope you eat no matter how stressed someone makes you. LOL When you lack love you are filled with darkness. Now, matter at hand...I feel guilt being an Admin and not being fully honest about who I am/Was. Now that you all know that We are doing really well and I am no longer so stressed about being on USM anylonger. You need to Know who I am. Or was ...Or Whatever...LOL I really am the same person, I feel like if many of you realized who I used to be here then more of us that used to speak still would...LOL I was TxTornado...I just wanted a fresh start, My whole person when I was TX was About Collin and my Boys....All of that dissappeared so I became a new person, I had to leave behind that life to start a new one. There was no way G&G were going to let me Erase all of those posts and stuff, so I Became Steel Dove, with Permission of course. I love who I am, I never Changed, I just started over. My new name reflects me Truly. I love you all, Today is my day of Celebration......I was set free and am a better person. You learn from everything that you go through, you have to always love, see the light at the end of the tunnel, keep faith in yourself, takes your friends GOOD advice and know that each experience in life has a reason and purpose even though we may not see it at the time. I know there were bigger plans for my boys and I we have been truly blessed. Our lives are much better and richer. We each learned something and have this great guy here that is Wonderful and loving to us. THAT COUNTS....It matters. Thank you all for being here and on. You make me-me everyday. I grow. Love....Jude....The Steel Dove You can join Unsolved Mysteries and post your own mysteries or interesting stories for the world to read and respond to Click here Scroll all the way down to read replies. Show all stories by   Author:  33900 ( Click here ) Spring is coming