Sur5r -- I need you

I have been so depressed lately, and Ben has just asked for more and more of me. Tonight I decided to tell him that I needed to be separated to make myself happy. It's been so hard. I wish so much that he was the one the wanted to break up with me so it would be easy and the only way I could go is up. I told him I wanted him in my life, and I loved how easy and comfortable it all was, and I loved thinking about our future life together, but now I think I can do it either way. With him or alone. One is easy.. one is hard. Oh, I don't know what to do. Maybe I just need some time alone. I'm so scared, about everything. What will happen to me? Will I be happier with Ben or alone? I think another thing I must bring up is that I think I like another boy quite a bit. He's very sweet to me and I don't want to be old and have any regrets about never doing something when I had the chance, but then again I've been with Ben for 3 years and what if I regret doing what I have done and he wont take me back?

I need someone to talk to.. someone to make me feel better. I need advice.

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