Confussion....Sucks!!.........(Beware..this is a venting post)...TinaLuck

Good Evening USM,

Just to start things off..I think USM...Should have a venting Place...heehee!!

Anyways...here I go...

The last couple of days...I have been having a hard time dealing with myself..and my life...so to speak...

There has been so much going through my mind...And I don't know how to make it stop...There are so many questions that I would like answers to..but, the problem is...I am the only one that can answer them.

I am tired of hearing..."Tina, Your a big girl...you can figure it out" or..."If I were you? I would do this or that"

The only thing that I have come up with so far is...YOU are not me...YOU don't know what I am thinking or feeling...Because I don't know myself..

I think that I have everything figured out...And BANG!!...I feel like I am starting all over again...Back to square one...and I don't want to be at square one...I want to be at least somewhere in this quest that I don't have to start over again...It is way to hard on me.

There is days...Like today...That I just want to give up..and go back to the way things were before my "big adventure"....There is a part of me that wants to but, I feel there is a bigger part of me that doesn't...(If that makes any sense at all)

I know that tomorrow is coming and things can look a whole lot different to me...And be glad that I am here doing what I am doing.

Why does life have to be so difficult all the time...I keep on thinking of the old saying..Life is what you make it....Well, I didn't want my life to turn out this way...so, why in the world did I let it?

Anyways...This is just Tina doing what she does best...vent vent vent..

Thanks so much for listening.



**Big Canadian Hugs**

TinaLuck

August 25th, 2003

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