Sur5r --REPLY UPDATE -- Pain and worry (health remedies?)   Author:  18008  Category:(Psychic Advice) Created:(7/30/2004 10:47:00 PM) This post has been Viewed (185 times) I'm so confused and hurt. I don't know what to do and I don't know what's going on. My boyfriend and I have been together for over 4 years and I had a health problem for awhile which involved painful intercourse so I was put on anti-depressants. My problem got a little better, still there was pain, and I couldn't stand the anti-depressants because I felt knocked out all the time and always wanted to be sleeping. I was changed to a seizure medicine and I began getting bad headaches with this and I stopped taking it. I have been feeling sick and a little strange, but I can see it's wearing off. I'm so scared because I want to be happy, but it seems each door I open leads to unhappiness. I'm crying each night now feeling very unspecial and unloved. I don't know what to do so I have to ask you for your advice and psychic help as the only thing I know to do: Am I turning into my old depressed and worrisome self? What can I do? I can't deal with this heartache.. I have no idea what I should do. I'm losing all self esteem and happiness. I need some answers and advice from you... How can I be a better person on my own without medicine? Each time something small happens between my boyfriend and I or my family, I become a crying mess it seems. I want the people I love to understand and I want to know how I can help my boyfriend and I to have a secure and romantic relationship. How can I become happy and fulfilled? How can I also create a romantic relationship that gives me a little something extra each day? I don't want to be on medication for the rest of my life, but I need so much help from myself and from others and it's so hard for me. I go to sleep with pain in my chest and I wake up with the same pain. I want to find a natural way to create my happiness and I want to be excited about my future and life again. I used to imagine my partner and my marriage and it looked so bright and wonderful, now I just see myself getting sad all the time because I need so much to be happy. I'm stressing about crazy things.. I'm stressing about if our lives will become boring and lonely, I'm scared that we'll fall out of love and become just a ritual, I'm worried that when I'm sick or sad that he wont understand how much I need people and love... that he'll just expect me to suck it up. I remember a time when I was happy and excited.. I have so many questions and the pain in my chest is growing. Thank you.. P.S. I have been a self-initiated Wiccan for 7 years, I was curious if there were any helpful rituals or any help you could give me to help with my pain. I have had vulvar vestibulitis for over a year and sometimes it makes me feel so upset and hopeless. They say it takes years to go away if it even ever goes away. Anything would be helpful to me. I am Amber, my boyfriend is Ben. I am 19 and my birthday is on Feb 13, 1985; he is 22 and his birthday is on April 26, 1982. You can join Unsolved Mysteries and post your own mysteries or interesting stories for the world to read and respond to Click here Scroll all the way down to read replies. Show all stories by   Author:  18008 ( Click here ) Spring is coming