I smoked my last cigarette yesterday at 1pm Central time. Bravely I plunged headlong in my box of Nicotrol Inhalers, thinking it would be as easy as last time to quit. By 7pm I was headache-y, edgy and ready to strangle someone. I have the Chantix, but not the 0.5 mg ones in the starter pack because ho ho ho I used those awhile back trying to quit. Luckily my mom still has the starter pack I gave her, so I will be getting those from her to ease the cravings.
This is hard. Really I had no intentions of quitting, and I think I chose a bad time to quit. My soon-to-be-ex-b/f is moving out Sunday, I've got vacation coming up in 2 weeks, and a potentially stressful family reunion happening August 3rd. I was thinking of putting the inhalers aside and waiting until things had calmed down before trying to quit.
Why am I even bothering to quit? My dad has terminal lung cancer, for one. And seeing that has scared me. Also, someone I care for deeply and hope for a future relationship with, abhors smoking. Can't stand it. Another motivator. As well as both myself and my youngest son being asthmatic. All good reasons to quit. Yet in the back of my mind I don't really WANT to quit, at least not right now. Does this mean I'm doomed to fail because I'm quitting at a time when my heart's not in it?
I don't know what to do now. I've made it 24 hours without smoking but I'm miserable. I'm edgy, snappy, craving one like heck and it's all I think about. My b/f was kind enough to buy me a HUGE bag of Wint-O-Green Lifesavers PLUS a huge bag of Jolly Ranchers and they'ved helped some.
When do the really intense "I gotta have a smoke NOW" cravings go away? I don't remember them being this bad when I quit smoking before, a few years ago. Of course, then my heart was gung-ho into it and I really wanted to quit too. How it changed my life:I know I should quit but I'm miserable and don't know what else to do.
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