I dont know if it can actually be done.
Here we go, I am forty years old and am aware, I don`t really know anything at all about anything at all inall my life.
I have learned that it is alright not to know and feel its ok just to say I can`t figure it all out yet.
Because I am able to see, I am blind in the spirit.
In a sense being blind feels good, for the reason I feel I am able to see this blindness clearly and so am not really actually blind at all really.
Maybe god does not allow us to see but lets us all make up whatever imagined stories we do and we most certainly do ofcourse.
Maybe we just dont know how it really actually works and also how it really actually fails too, depending upon who you really are and I think Im really not.
Like I said, I really dont know but the good news is that I feel and am willing to have feelings to discover there why and wherefore whether I like it or not.
Why we cut them off and ignore them no more.
Make our own too the way we feel it should be and it shouldn`t be that we shouldnt feel what we dont like too, for when we decide to ignore ignorance,
We finally become to feel we are really very, very smart.
and why not for it is true too in some cases.
God asked me not to act like I think I know in front of others and especially little children He said to me he does not wish them to feel they know while still within their own learning stages of life. For they would choose not to learn otherwise.
He also requested that I act in front of others as if I do not know and let them feel ok with it too... Even if I do whats the difference between what I pretend to know and what I feel I really do.
Show them that I am ok with not really knowing, so they can too learn to be alright not feeling inadiquite or less than you, thinking that you obviously do.
They look up to us and want to be like us too, so lets not pretend its real unless were just really pretending it from now on!!
For they will to do, as they see it is done and to choose for themselves and to be to others what they decide to feel.
We all share our attitudes with one another. I asked god How could I really actually take it seriously, that it was really even him I was even hearing.
I was just imagining it in my head, making it up like a little kid pretending to drive a tonka toy.
I felt uncomfotable that I did not really know if it was god or just me pretending it up in my mind.
He said that, this!
Is the way he wanted it for now and promised to show me slowly in time and if I earned it too, most importanly.
So what if I am just making it up, its true and thats all I have ever been doing since birth.
Making it all up!
Pretended, imagined, information, I pieced together as my own reality in my own mind.
I have been lying to myself and everyone else since I can remember, yet I promise you, I never thought that I actually was in fact.
It all made sense to me, I knew how to really make it make sense and believe it too.
So the fact is that until god shows me how I have been making it all up since birth,It is only what he shows me, I will or will not become aware of after it.
It will enable me to possess the free will too or not.
Its ok, not to know and even if you actually do, be aware its mixed in with everything pretend too.
So why seperate it, it was meant to be together, only what one chooses to will to act upon
will ever make a difference to anyone. How it changed my life:We will see!
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